To wait for the dream bus or board the one in front of him

Here he was. He was supposed to take the call to join this job. This was not exactly a dream come true. But as per discussions with people who matter, family and friends, This was a good compromise.  Every passing second his mind comes back to the same question, should he take this call. Heart is unsure. It has been always like this for him.  You cannot call him a loser, but things always went like this for him. Never picture perfect.  He always has to take this call to wait for the picture perfect dream or take the compromise. .  Why does it have to be like this way? Why do other people get an easy  and clear verdict? He blames himself. 

He is not sure if he has lost the battle. But the funny thing is he is not sure if he has won it as well.  

Anxiety builds up. He feels almost nauseous with anxiety.  He has to make a choice.  He has to press the yes or no button.  But he is afraid if his choice would turn out to be his biggest mistake. Fear  and anxiety affect him. He becomes irritable with people who matter. He feels jealous of people who have a clear choice.  He looks up for support. He feels alone. Insecure. Timid. 

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That's life. 

Our choices and decisions govern who we end up becoming.